Venting: Losing Best Friends and Making New Ones

 

Guys, I hope you don't mind, but can I just vent for a bit?

A month ago, I was in a debate with my friends about an undisclosed subject. Because I'm still young and stupid, my relationship with them would go sour. That argument would then haunt me for the rest of my teenage life (probably not). I would also proceed to lack the confidence to try and apologize to them because of the fear that they'll probably hate me.

Weeks after, shortly after I got addicted to the Yakuza series, I would join a Facebook meme group called Yakuza MajimaPosting. After posting a few memes, I would find out that they have a Discord server. As soon as I joined it, I would keep quiet, but not until I heard about Radio Royale, the group's podcast.

I wouldn't participate until the second episode though, since the first episode's question didn't really fit me. That was when I would start to get active more with the MajimaPosters. That was when the Yakuza MajimaPosting community became my new best friends, my new group of kyodais.

Fast forward to a few days later, I was ready to apologize to my friends. But due to fear hitting me, I was hesitant. The MajimaPosters encouraged me to not be afraid, so I rolled with it. And thankfully, my friends accepted my apology, though they said they need some time away from me.

A few weeks later, anxiety would hit me. I kept thinking to myself "what if they don't want to be with me anymore? what if they hate me?" As I vented my feelings to my new kyodais, they said that no matter what happens, they would always stick with me. Those words would encourage me but still won't stop me from being anxious. If they don't get back to me by the end of August, or September (maybe until the end of the year), I'll probably break ties with them.

-JJ